Some who take a glance at the pics I favorite and think "some freak here " or something along those lines. Truth be told I am a very normal man who likes women....so screw you if you think that.

But that isn't the point of my journal, though I had to put it our there.

I honestly am beside myself today...sick and tired of my life, no not in I'm going to do something stupid way, just tired of being unhappy. I am in a deadend marriage and I want out...but don't want to hurt my kids.

I have fallen for someone else too boot. She is everything I want and need.

No I have not cheated on my wife in any physical manner before someone asks.

My marriage is a one sided marriage. I do everything except birthing the kids.
I do all the cooking, I do all the cleaning, all the wash, I do 80 percent of all the parenting, I even wash her hair.....I am stupid and a slave.
The kids verbally tell my wife everyday they love me more.

My wife isn't the most loving person in fact she is miserable.

I am not sure how we had kids to be honest, no smart assess please.

We have been together for 14 years and I just cant take it anymore. I am sick of my health getting worse over this as well....I want out.

I have always been the main money bringer in....she had only worked the better part of two years of our relationship. I love coming home to nothing done....

Wish God would give me some answers.......